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Sometimes the best laid plans, the ones I was certain would be fulfilled are not to be. Sometimes things crack wide open, so light can fill the spaces and make room for something much grander than I could ever have imagined.

Friends, how often have you found this to be accurate in your life? It seems an oft proven principle to remember when life takes a left turn, when we meant to turn right. It wasn’t what we intended, but in time we find that something even better is down the road. Or an encounter with an important other happens while we are being steered off course, someone whose influence shapes and changes our lives in the future.

The possibilities are endless, and looking back we all have our stories of how this has proven true in our lives. And so a sustained trust comes to mind for these left turns, that, and a pinch of curiosity for the wide open potential that lies before us. Together, these shall be our guiding light…

*image by needanewname @ Deviant Art

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A dear friend of mine recommended a book she was reading – “Talking with Nature ~ Journey into Nature”. Of course I love all things about nature and ordered it, expecting it to be about, well … nature.

It arrived in the mail today. I randomly opened it to one page, read a few sentences and felt the truth of it at such a deep level, tears welled up. I opened to another page, and thought: wow! Another page, and I uttered to myself – holy sh*t! Here I am folding laundry trying to simultaneously hold the book open and do the tasks at hand, that’s how excited I was to dive into it.

So I decided to begin from the beginning. And again, a few pages in, I cried again. Trust and letting go are such easy concepts to banter about, yet when everything we hold dear in the world is on the line, not so easy after all.

So I’ll quote you a bit from the first few pages and let’s see where it goes. I’m sure there will be much more to quote from down the road.

“Let go and fall into the river.
Let the river of life sweep you beyond all aid from old and worn concepts.
I will support you.
Trust me.
As you swim from an old consciousness, blind to higher realities beyond your physical world, trust that I will guide you with care and love into a new stream of consciousness.
I will open a new world before you.
Can you trust me enough to let go of the known, and swim in an unknown current?”
Talking with Nature ~ Journey into Nature by Michael J. Roads

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Screwiness

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I was listening to Abraham (channeled by Esther Hicks) in my car yesterday.  It’s been many moons since I had tuned into them, and I had about a 10 minute window in which to listen.  Don’t you know the Universe just gives you exactly what you need to hear at just the perfect timing?!  Here’s what Abe had to say:

“Does Source always need to find the positive aspects?   Can Source not be objective enough to see that something is screwy with that?  Well, it isn’t that Source doesn’t see the screwiness; Source accepts the screwiness as not wrong, not threatening.  Source sees the contrast.  Source just … and you may want to write this down because it is just profound beyond profound …

Source just doesn’t freak out!”

And Source has a sense of humor, too!

I really resonate with the truth of Eckhart Tolle when he says: “whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it.”  I’d take it a step further and say that on some level we have chosen it, no matter how abhorrent the moment seems.

As Abraham says: “we are eternal beings”.  Eternal has to include expansion and it must follow that expansion includes new doorways to new experiences, new directions, choices, decisions, and new focus and clarity.

There are a multitude of ways to walk through that doorway of uncharted territory — freaking out, walking in trust, crying foul all the way “somebody screwed up my order”!  It doesn’t matter how any of us walk through that doorway, but walk we must.  It’s what we do, it’s how we play with the energy here on Planet Earth, for as long as we are blessed to be here.  And one thing I know for sure, I AM blessed to be here!

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We can let our lives be directed
by the same force that makes
flowers grow.  {…}

To trust in the force
that moves the universe
is faith.

Faith isn’t blind it’s visionary.
Faith is believing that the universe
is on our side, and that the universe
knows what it’s doing.

Faith is a psychological awareness
of an unfolding force for good,
constantly at work in all dimensions.

Our attempts to direct this force only
interferes with it.
Our willingness to relax into it allows
it to work on our behalf.

Marianne Williamson
A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles

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Shortly, I will be gone for most of February.  I thought I might leave you with a few oldies but goodies.  This one always makes me laugh!  There will be more to come!  And when I get back from my training, we’ll resume to our regularly scheduled programming.  Though “regular” is not a term typically ascribed to me :-)….enjoy until I am back…blackandwhite

From here on out, this blog will be in re-runs.  There will be a continual, unending loop of re-posts.  It will be boring, repetitious and worse yet, time will elongate during this period and appear to slow down.  Painfully so.

I’m just kidding!  My point and I do have one, she says snarkily, is that even a word?  Back to my point, the little locally focused me – the one that goes to sleep and thinks she is separate from God/Source/Universe et al.  The one who thinks banging it into place still works.  The one who believes that all forms of fretting will keep any negative surprises at bay.  The one who forgets about resting and trusting in the continually unfolding nature of all things. The one who wants to go it alone and get out there and make it happen.  The one who thinks her hands are the only hands on the levers of life.  The little locally focused me who gets a little crazy even at the idea of rest and trust.  What is little me supposed to do while bigger me is off resting and trusting?  Somebody has to DO something.  We can’t just sit here resting and trusting with a dumb ass smile on our face.  Hurry up, we’ve got worrying to do and plan B’s to execute!

Or do we?  Isn’t all spiritual forgetfulness just a re-run and a boring one at that, stuck in an endless loop with no fast forward button.   Well, I’m not actually in re-runs not literally and not metaphorically because if I were, I wouldn’t be writing about it.  I’d be lost in black and white re-broadcasts desperately searching for my color palette by adding more drama to the mix.  But if I should re-visit re-runs, I hope to remember this.  And especially I hope to recall that nothing very serious is going on here but by now some seriously dull and tiresome re-runs.

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“And for this year, my wish for each of us is small and very simple.

And it’s this:

I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes.

Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You’re doing things you’ve never done before, and more importantly, you’re Doing Something.

So that’s my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody’s ever made before. Don’t freeze, don’t stop, don’t worry that it isn’t good enough, or it isn’t perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life.

Whatever it is you’re scared of doing, Do it.

Make your mistakes, next year and forever.” ~Neil Gaiman

Are you all in with life?  You see, the only thing that really stops us from taking risks, being all in, and making mistakes, is fear.  But did you know underneath that cloak of fear, is you?  It’s your courage, it’s your trust, your insight, your wisdom, and your dreams.  It’s the well you draw from, the will to overcome your greatest fears.  All those resources are there for us to tap into, just below that layer of fear.   Beyond the field of your greatest fears lies a vital, grounded, pulsing life force.  That is who you really are!

“There’s a moment when fear and dreams must collide.  Someone I am is waiting for courage.  The one I will become, will catch me.  So let me fall, I will dance so freely, holding onto no one.  You can hold me only, if you too will fall…away from all these useless fears and chains.”  Cirque du Soleil lyrics to Let Me Fall

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“Life has an astonishing way of taking care of you when you no longer mind what happens.”  J. Krishnamurti

I love the language of this quote.  The author didn’t say, when you no longer care what happens.  Instead it is written, when you no longer “mind” what happens.  I love that differentiation.  It’s not asking you to shut down your feelings or deny them.

Now the mind will want to make sense of it all, try to figure it all out, maybe come up with a plan, a solution at best.  At worst, to go up in the mind, is to draw conclusions about what it all means, make judgments and categorize.  Ultimately then, to let mind lead the way, is to cement yourself deeper in problems that need your solutions.

Funny … would you pilot a plane without knowledge of its workings?  It’s very similar when we think it’s our job to take care of things with our limited resources.  There’s something working on our behalf every moment of every day with unlimited resources.

What about letting the heart take the lead?  What about showing up empty with openness, willingness and trust?  Knowing and trusting deeply that everything always works itself out, and a corresponding willingness to be moved upon by something so grand and mysterious.

So the next time something out there in the world leads us to forget momentarily, it’s easy to remember and rely upon two simple words: thank you.  Thank you Life, Source, God, Universe, Spirit.  I know you are, at this very moment, taking care of me in ways I couldn’t possibly ever orchestrate on my own.  I defer to you and your infinite wisdom and guidance.  I am an open, empty vessel willing to be filled.  Thank you.

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Poking

Been listening to Abe, the most recent, for just a bit today.  I wondered how long I was going to poke around in the problem/solution before I was done.  Then I thought I better quit poking unless I want said problem/solution bigger.

Then of course it occurs to me this “better quit poking” is all about control/fear.  I cop to all of it being about control/fear.  I get up in the middle of the night, open the shades to check outside and make sure there isn’t what? a boogeyman out there.  Some new contrast to come bite me in the ass, when I’m not looking, so if I look it will bite less? :)

This whole idea that I have to glean some message out of what happened, learn the lesson, grok it, understand it, make sure I expand out of it, is also all about control/fear.  As if, if I really get the lesson, I pass go and I won’t be sent back to contrast jail.  Perhaps I’ll visit but I won’t miss my turn.  So there.  :)

I am still poking around, I guess.  When my Mom said don’t touch the stove, it’s hot, I had to check to make sure.  However, this is not the same as putting my hand in the fire.  I am just checking/poking around in temperature levels, got that Universe?  Good.

Bless my little pea-pickin’ fearful self.  What I really want to do is pluck the full ripe blossoms and let the juices spill out over the corners of my mouth.  I want pea-pickin’ fearful girl to fall away and slip off of me like so much of nothing.

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“… flare up like flame and make big shadows I can move in …” ~ Rilke

I was noticing that trust and truth share the first three letters “tru”.  I went searching for the origins and etymology of both words, trust and truth, and found that they share in common one word — faithful.  I began to explore then how trust and truth might be linked and to what and whom is it that I am faithful.

Recently I’ve written about how I’ve diminished my own authority in the world.  This is to not trust in the truth of who I am, it is instead to negate it.   And here’s the rub: I have so much authority that I even have the authority to diminish my own authority.  I have had all the authority all along.  I am the author of my life.  I have the power to play it small or play it big.  I have the power to make myself weak or strong, meek or bold, broken or whole.  I can choose to self censor and diminish myself.  I can choose its opposite too.

So I’ve been playing a little game of smoke and mirrors.  I’ve been so powerful I could pretend I was weak.  It’s a myth I have created that I was ever less than, a myth of my own making.  I have both the power to bind myself in chains and the power to relieve myself of them, too.

I had it a bit backwards when I said in my 30 day challenge I would speak my truth, I would honor it, I would not defer it, explain it or stuff it.  I put the proverbial cart before the horse.  Guess what?  I can’t really know my truth until I know myself.  And I mean “know” myself in terms of not denying myself.  This means trusting in a greater truth, trusting in the fullness, the wholeness of all that I really am and remaining faithful to that truth.

Joseph Campbell has said the privilege of a lifetime is in being who you are.  I am feeling that life is too short for me to deny myself that privilege even for one moment longer.

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It was April Fool’s Day and the Universe was having its way with me.  I was seated at my desk, when I was startled by a noise to my left.  It was my cat, the littlest of my cats, maybe a 5 pounder.  She was on the window screen, spread eagle, holding on by all four paws. The only problem, she was on the outside of the screen and it was a nice drop below her since she was two stories above the ground.

My heart pounding, I asked to no one in particular, since I was alone: what do I do?!  And the answer that came clearly was “do nothing”.  I did nothing.  I watched her let go one paw at a time.  At the point that she was dangling by one last paw, I knew then I had to turn away.  Turn away both literally and figuratively.  I had to look elsewhere so that I wouldn’t give myself to the unwanted conclusion, the worst case scenario.

I heard a thump.  I walked up to the screen and peered through it.  I don’t know how it happened.  There really should have been only one place for her to land and that was straight down.  A few feet to her side is a jutting out of the house, I have no idea how she swung over there but she did.  The physics, logistics of it make no sense.  There she stood looking up at me.  Next, I did do something – I removed the screen and pulled her in!

This was one of those love notes from the Field.  It presents itself as an unusual occurrence but hidden within it, is instruction.  Information, guidance or direction that is relevant to something going in our lives right now.  Sometimes these unusual occurrences take the form of a problem that we get lost in and then lose access to that guidance and information.  The Field is in constant conversation with us, met with non-resistance, so much can be revealed.

In the case of what happened here, I was waiting to hear whether I would be approved for something I was really, really wanting.  I wondered – should I do more, should I say more?  I also remembered in the past when I had been denied the very thing I was now waiting to hear, might this time I be approved.

The love note from the Field was, this thing you are wanting … do nothing.  But there’s more, the rest of that phrase is do nothing and everything will be done.  I think that is a Buddhist quote.  Yes, everything will be done with a certain provision, that I wasn’t giving myself to unwanted conclusions or worst case scenarios.  I took the guidance and rested in: do nothing *and* do not give myself to unwanted conclusions.  Then … everything will be done.  In good time, the approval did come.

The Field/Universe/God/Source/Spirit will bend over backwards to surprise and delight us in ways that beat all odds, even ways that seem to bend the laws of logistics.  It loves to show off for us.  And what it says to me most of all, is that we are never alone, even when we are “physically” alone, we are heard, we are answered.  All that remains is that we open the door and give right of way to an efficiency and a resourcefulness that is far greater than our own.

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