Archive for August, 2013



My new spiritual practice is in ‘letting myself have’.  Letting myself have means *accepting* whatever thought form is bobbing up on the surface, in any given moment.  That’s all they ever do, those little buggers, is bob up on the surface — the should’s and their kissing cousins, the ought to’s and the must’s.  Give that thought form some additional air time, sign on the dotted line…

                                                                                                                              ‘yes, you/they/he/she should’

and by gosh, a bob becomes the muck and mire, congratulations you’ve bought a consonant, and a bog!   Enter being at war with ourselves.  Enter being at war with life.  Enter suffering.

A very wise friend of mine once said “anything you can let yourself have, you can let yourself release”*.  I did the simple math and it’s obvious anything that you judge that should be different, any notion that a situation is not, should not be this way, is a means of staying intimately engaged with it.

The process is very simple, I’ll give you some examples below:

I should be out of bed and dressed by now.
Letting myself have … I am in bed and, I am not dressed.

I should not care what others think of me.
Letting myself have … I care what others think of me.

I should be a better Mom.
Letting myself have … my application for sainthood has been denied, Mother Teresa still reigns. :-) 

I should not be having this argument with my husband.
Letting myself have … my husband is an a**hole.
Just checking to see if you are still reading!  This was part of my actual process last night and the humor is what allowed me to let it go.

I should be doing the laundry.
Letting myself have … I am not doing the laundry.

I shouldn’t be afraid of ___________.
Letting myself have … I am afraid of ___________.

I should have my spiritual sh*t in one sock by now.
Letting myself have … I am where I am.

That’s the gist of ‘letting myself have’.  It doesn’t matter what we let ourselves have, but in the letting is the releasing.  As I loosen my grip on how it should be, muscles that were tensed relax, I breathe more freely.  And what remains is the peace that comes from the willingness to say yes to whatever arises.

*props to my wise friends Holly S. and Ahmee for their inspiration.    

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Go Your Way


Now that you have learnt
what cannot be taught,
go your way

Now that you have seen
what cannot be shown,
go your way.

Now that you have discovered
that which was not hidden,
go your way.

Now that we are united in
what is inseparable,
go your way.

Now that you have returned to
where you have never left,
go your way.

Now that you know That
which has no path,

go your own way.

Writing on Water

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This week’s inquiry (followed by song lyrics, which I originally heard in a Science of Mind church):

What waits for my courage?

Let me fall
Let me climb
There’s a moment when fear
And dreams must collide

Someone I am
Is waiting for courage
The one I want
The one I will become
Will catch me

So let me fall
If I must fall
I won’t heed your warnings
I won’t hear them

Let me fall
If I fall
Though the phoenix may
Or may not rise

I will dance so freely
Holding on to no one
You can hold me only
If you too will fall
Away from all these
Useless fears and chains

Someone I am
Is waiting for my courage
The one I want
The one I will become
Will catch me

So let me fall
If I must fall
I won’t heed your warnings
I won’t hear

Let me fall
If I fall
There’s no reason
To miss this one chance
This perfect moment
Just let me fall

Cirque du Soleil lyrics
Album: Quidam

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The ordinary miracles begin. Somewhere
a signal arrives: “Now,” and the rays
come down. A tomorrow has come. Open
your hands, lift them: morning rings
all the doorbells; porches are cells for prayer.
Religion has touched your throat. Not the same now,
you could close your eyes and go on full of light.

And it is already begun, the chord
that will shiver glass, the song full of time
bending above us. Outside, a sign:
a bird intervenes; the wings tell the air,
“Be warm.” No one is out there, but a giant
has passed through town, widening streets, touching
the ground, shouldering away the stars.

~William Stafford~
William Tell: Poems by William Stafford

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I’ve come up with this week’s inquiry.  These are always so much fun to experiment with and share with all of you.

~ How do I feel when I drop out of my head and into my heart? ~

What I love about this question is that you can’t think your way through it, it’s wholly experiential. 

There’s certainly a time and a place for thinking and analyzing.  When it becomes more of the hamster wheel of over-thinking, over-analyzing, especially when it’s fear and/or judgment based, this is the time to use this question.

Even asking the question once can bring about an internal state change, because once again the war with life has ceased.  In its place is an ever expanding awareness of the vibrancy of ourselves and life that is always present and available to tap into.

It’s that shift that invites us to leave behind the occasional notion that life’s a scary place, into the supportive space of life is kind, comfortable, easy, relaxed, expansive and friendly. 

As I move towards my heart centered spirit, it moves towards me.  As one harmonic, vibrating spirit I can move through this world with the comfort and ease that’s always been available to me.



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Gimme Ten


I decided to incorporate affirmations during my exercise.  I do Pilates, but it doesn’t matter what you do.  If you are laying down, standing up, or walking, affirmations can be incorporated at any time.

We are all aware of the old exercise mantra: no pain, no gain.  That’s a negative affirmation.  Truth is, we are stating affirmations every day, so it’s beneficial to consciously direct the flow of those affirmations and be selectively discerning with our self-talk.

This could be a whole new wave of all exercise, incorporating mantras or affirmations.  Affirming and fully integrating the mind, body and spirit all at once.  It puts a whole other spin on “gimme 10”.  Instead of 10 pushups, how about 10 affirmations?!

Here’s an example of some of my affirmations, feel free to use them and/or make up your own:

I feel myself fully supported and grounded in the earth. (breathe and really feel the connection here as if there’s a golden cord that runs from the earth and up through your feet, all the way up through your spine and out the top of your head.)

My physical, mental, and energetic bodies are fluid and flexible.

I sink deeper into my stretches with every breath, and consciously acknowledge my connection to Spirit flowing through every cell of my being.

I allow the highest source of goodness to flow through me now.

I am present in this moment, allowing the comfort of a strong body to be my most natural state.

My body guides me to just the right movements.   I nourish and trust in my body.

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“The basic difference between 5 sensory people and 6 sensory people, is that 5 sensory people follow ego based law — which can be summarized quite simply as me against you, and you scare me. And so we put up our barriers, we operate from fear. 6 sensory people on the other hand, don’t operate from ego based law, we operate from spiritual law. We realize we are spiritual people; we don’t look *at* life, we *feel into* it.

6 sensory people say: me and you, how are we alike? And because the Universe, at all times, is perfectly organized energetically: why are we together? and, what are we here to learn from each other and what can we create?”

The above is a quote from Trust Your Vibes by Sonia Choquette. I know we’re not all perfectly aligned spiritually at all times; there are occasions when our defenses rear up in relationship to others. However, what if we stopped and just observed those defenses as present within ourselves, and then asked:

“How are we alike?

Why are we together?

What are we here to learn from each other?”

I just had a meeting with someone that I had a little trepidation over, my guard was up a bit. I noticed it and then breathed into those questions. Just asking the first question — how are we alike? — dropped the guard and my heart opened.

The moment I have a guard up, I am at war with life. The moment I drop that guard I resume a friendly relationship with life. When I’m in a friendly rapport with life, all sorts of things happen to surprise and delight me.

This is just a really easy way to be with me and you and three simple questions. I notice as soon as I say me and other people, or me and everyone else, or me and them, I have already begun to separate myself. So, I like ‘me and you’; we *are* in this together. I want to practice inquiring about that at all times, especially when those little buggers get stuck in my craw.

If you’re in my experience, you’re there for a reason. May I see our likenesses above all else, and remain curiously open to what we have to teach each other.

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Image by Rassouli


I was listening to Abraham (channeled by Esther Hicks) in my car yesterday.  It’s been many moons since I had tuned into them, and I had about a 10 minute window in which to listen.  Don’t you know the Universe just gives you exactly what you need to hear at just the perfect timing?!  Here’s what Abe had to say:

“Does Source always need to find the positive aspects?   Can Source not be objective enough to see that something is screwy with that?  Well, it isn’t that Source doesn’t see the screwiness; Source accepts the screwiness as not wrong, not threatening.  Source sees the contrast.  Source just … and you may want to write this down because it is just profound beyond profound …

Source just doesn’t freak out!”

And Source has a sense of humor, too!

I really resonate with the truth of Eckhart Tolle when he says: “whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it.”  I’d take it a step further and say that on some level we have chosen it, no matter how abhorrent the moment seems.

As Abraham says: “we are eternal beings”.  Eternal has to include expansion and it must follow that expansion includes new doorways to new experiences, new directions, choices, decisions, and new focus and clarity.

There are a multitude of ways to walk through that doorway of uncharted territory — freaking out, walking in trust, crying foul all the way “somebody screwed up my order”!  It doesn’t matter how any of us walk through that doorway, but walk we must.  It’s what we do, it’s how we play with the energy here on Planet Earth, for as long as we are blessed to be here.  And one thing I know for sure, I AM blessed to be here!

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