Lately, I’ve been putting a lot of focus on myself, which is why I took a blog sabbatical. Regular readers know that my Dad died this year. I also decided to get treatment for PTSD with neurofeedback. That was my first choice. Then because my PTSD manifests in screaming out loud nightmares that wake my entire household, I also decided to seek a Jungian trained therapist. When it comes to dream work, Jung was sheer brilliance.
In my neurofeedback sessions I get hooked up to these electrodes placed on my head and ears. Then I wear earphones and sound gets piped in. When I am in a “stuck” place in my brain, it gives me feedback in my ears that lets me know I’m in that stuck place. From there, I choose where to journey, stay stuck or move somewhere new, though I have to say it doesn’t always feel a conscious choice. It feels like the brain is journeying all on its own.
When I first started the neurofeedback, there were times it got very emotional. Mostly, I’ve moved past that now and sometimes the sessions are a deep meditative experience. Other times, though, I feel as if I am bouncing around in the ethers of the Universe, getting answers to questions I didn’t even know I had. It’s as if a part of me takes off into a whole other realm of being. Those are my favorite sessions, though they’ve kicked my butt every time, as I’ll be in brain exhaustion the rest of the day. Then I will sleep like a baby those nights and awake renewed and filled with so much excitement around where my brain, my consciousness has been.
So in asking to understand more about how this all worked, my naturopath was explaining to me about synapses and such and that stuck *ANYTHING* including stuck happiness is not optimal use of the brain. I started to ponder that and it makes sense. If this is an expansion based Universe, of course this has to be true. Something stuck doesn’t create new pathways, it hinders it. So even though it’s been said we can never truly be stuck, in the brain, I think there’s lots of ways energy, vibration, synapses, what have you, can become stuck. What The Bleep illustrated this perfectly in the wedding reception scene with people dancing with the various IV’s, their emotional drugs of choice.
It just really kind of blew my mind that even being stuck in happiness is not optimal use of the brain. And that leads me to a whole new place to stand in with lots of new options. Really calls into question the old Abe edict: nothing is more important than I feel good. I love Abraham Hicks and a hundred other teachers but I’m starting to think maybe I’ll drink my own koolaid for awhile. The measure of my life is not just in my joy or happiness, it’s infinitely so much more than just that.
beth i just wrote i LONG and great response to this wonderful post of yours and my PC blew out as i went to send it, SO i want to say that i have recently had very profound experinces of similar things EXACT similar stuff and i actually watched the bleep last week after not seeing it for about 1 year… the best koolaide is our very own flavor!
Well, if you get the time or inclination again to write it out, send it on here or FB or email.
You know I’m a huge WTB fan. I think it was groundbreaking in the metaphysical media arena much more so than The Secret and something can be learned from it in every viewing. I unfortunately loaned out my Rabbit Hole edition and haven’t seen it since. Might have to get it again. Do you have that one? Hours more of tape and interviews even with scientists that didn’t make the final cut in the movie. I think there’s even alternate endings to the movie on that version.
Thanks for sharing such an inspirational post. :)
Thank you Kim. That is so kind of you to drop me a line to say that.
What a beautiful insight, Beth. The richest living comes from seeing the whole glass–the part that’s empty as well as the part that’s full. And one’s own homemade koolaide is always the very best.
Hugs enclosed.
{{{hugs}}} back atcha Susan!
I would challenge the idea that anyone can be stuck in happiness. Abe says that it is possible to reach for relief even in a state of joy, which means further expansion is possible. And in all the various energy medicine therapies I have experienced (and there have been many, from acupuncture to somato-emotional release), no practitioner has ever talked about energy being stuck as a result of happiness, only as a result of trauma. Why would you want to become “unstuck” anyway, if not to be happier?
just the regular bleep version (O:
tho… now that i am bleepin u know where shes seeing a version of herself in the beginning and end… i just had that happen this morning ran into an old “friend” that i havent seen in 4 years and ran into the trace patterns of me from then too, feels a bit raw /O:
Hugs, AnnMarie. You are such a pro at this and so real and present in the world. This really comes through on your videos and I adore that about you.
Consider checking out your library for the Rabbit Hole edition of WTB, you will love it. xoxo <3
Well, what I will tell you Marie, is what I said to my rab friends — what I want for me personally, is to have complete unabashed, unfiltered freedom to feel all the flavors of my humanness. That’s how I define for myself living an authentic life.
I realize this is not the same for others and I don’t advocate this for everyone either. I advocate it for me at this point in my personal journey.
Nice post to ponder! I just put a “hold” on What the Bleep at the library, been years too since I’ve seen it.
Totally get drinking your own kool-aid, I’ve gotten “stuck” in thinking if I’m not happy then I’m not in a good place, but that’s not true.
Love Abe too, but always open to other ideas about being – and being authentic. One of the most delightful authors I’ve come across lately is Brené Brown. Have you heard of her? She has a couple of books and a Ted Talk – I profiled her here, the Ted talk is posted too.
http://tinyurl.com/3jghbyj
Anyhoo – love your thoughts! Makes me think too.
Yes, I love her, too! Have seen that TED talk a few times now. Thanks for sharing it you bathtub diva, you! xo
Anything for you baby. {o} {x} {o}