You didn’t come forth because you wanted guarantees. And you knew you would ‘land on your feet beautifully’ because you knew the Divine that is back of every thing. And you didn’t come forth to have some one dimensional point A to point B experience. You came forth for the multi-layered adventure of it all, because you knew the Joy was in that moment-to-moment Creation, the hands in the clay, paint on the canvas experience that only you can have.
I wrote the above a few years year ago. I think it ties in nicely with something I heard the other day: the gods rarely draw in straight lines. And it also fits well with my other blog post entitled: Who Knows What’s Good What’s Bad. Given that I have all of this understanding, at this point, you’d think I would be so going with the flow, just be-bopping along. No more panty wad twisting for this girl. But no, that would be way too easy :).
Yet here’s the thing – I am getting a sense of this other part of me who witnesses the drama, witnesses my reactions and is unaffected by it. This observer me seems to have a perspective much like the long lens of a camera. It sees the bigger picture that in the heat of the moment I cannot. It senses an unfolding beyond this moment. It rests in a knowing that all really is well and that all my endings are happy endings. She has always been there. The difference today, is that when she quietly beckons me, I begin to hear her now. She has gone ahead and prepared the way for me. I only need to take a moment, breathe and remember.
…”And you knew you would ‘land on your feet (or some other body part!) beautifully’ because you knew the Divine that is back of every thing.”
if anyone i know knows about the twisted path, it would be… me. The big me that is. or the wise me? you know who(O:
i read this this morning and loved it, decided id respond tonight and dont ya know i NEEDED to read it again tonight! lolololol
xo am
Yeah well I wrote it almost two years ago and am still taking my own advice. I guess perfection wasn’t meant to be on my menu :).
hey arent you supposed to be face reading right now??
i have a little “drama” i decided to get into today, its not a little one really… its one i can get VERY big about, its also one of those places that i really CANNOT go anymore or so i should know by now cause it does me no good what so ever to continue to beat this drum, but i got my mind into it again and am being pissy, the thing IS… i am the only one who is suffering and it is only my drama… like an old worn out raggety doll i just cant seem to put down… i do know tho on some level that i am better at finding my way now than i have ever been, and it will subside and the path will unfold and it will feeeeeel better in … a little bit (O:
what the point of perfection anyway? its never done.
love ya am
I know it’s never done, good point. …I think it’s still a different ball game when you aware you are choosing it.
true, of course it would be. today i allowed myself the pressure releaser of ANGER being a step UP from the previous feeling, and i know i dont stay there long anyway.
Thankyou, I needed this reminder!!
Oh you are so welcome, Sandra. I needed the reminder, too!