I had a mini melt down yesterday. It was not one of my best days. I went to bed early just to get relief from it all. And in the middle of the night I awakened with a brilliant idea: why not hypnotize myself, plant suggestions in my mind for the morning?
The thing is, I am always under my own spell, my own self hypnosis of whatever talk is running in the background of my mind. I’m having a melt down is self hypnosis, too, and all the attendant thoughts that run with that statement. The good news and the bad news, depending on where you sit, is that it’s all self fulfilling.
Let’s talk about the good news. I awoke in the middle of the night and remembered if I could run negative self hypnosis in my head, I could plant seeds of thought that would benefit me. I recalled how night time is the perfect time to plant a seed in my mind, because sleep is a less resistant, more fertile ground to plant in.
So in that hazy half awake state, I began to reach for statements and as I said them silently I also slipped into the feeling state of each statement. Such as: In the morning I will wake up and feel every cell of my body alive and vibrating in wholeness. I will open my eyes and greet the day with a wide open eagerness. I will move about my day and I will find God in every nook and cranny of life.
And honestly I don’t remember, word for word, what I said but what came out of me was as if I was channeling Source energy, every sentence seemed to glimmer and glow. As the words tumbled out so did the feeling state of each one of them. I went back to sleep knowing I would awaken in a completely different state than what I was in when I went to bed last night. And I did.
The larger point I am making here is that it’s all self hypnosis, everything we tell ourselves day in, day out, the stuff that works in our favor and that which doesn’t. We have only to listen to our background self-talk to know if we are under a spell we find desirable or not.
Me — I want to be under the spell of surprise and delight. I want to be bowled over by how much is wonderful in this world. I want to be crazy with amazement, giddy with wonder. I want my laughter to fill a universe. And then I want to sleep and create more spells I can be captivated by. I want to use my creative energy to cast spells of goodness that befall me randomly and leave me … weak in the knees, humble, prayerful, thankful.