I had a mini melt down yesterday. It was not one of my best days. I went to bed early just to get relief from it all. And in the middle of the night I awakened with a brilliant idea: why not hypnotize myself, plant suggestions in my mind for the morning?
The thing is, I am always under my own spell, my own self hypnosis of whatever talk is running in the background of my mind. I’m having a melt down is self hypnosis, too, and all the attendant thoughts that run with that statement. The good news and the bad news, depending on where you sit, is that it’s all self fulfilling.
Let’s talk about the good news. I awoke in the middle of the night and remembered if I could run negative self hypnosis in my head, I could plant seeds of thought that would benefit me. I recalled how night time is the perfect time to plant a seed in my mind, because sleep is a less resistant, more fertile ground to plant in.
So in that hazy half awake state, I began to reach for statements and as I said them silently I also slipped into the feeling state of each statement. Such as: In the morning I will wake up and feel every cell of my body alive and vibrating in wholeness. I will open my eyes and greet the day with a wide open eagerness. I will move about my day and I will find God in every nook and cranny of life.
And honestly I don’t remember, word for word, what I said but what came out of me was as if I was channeling Source energy, every sentence seemed to glimmer and glow. As the words tumbled out so did the feeling state of each one of them. I went back to sleep knowing I would awaken in a completely different state than what I was in when I went to bed last night. And I did.
The larger point I am making here is that it’s all self hypnosis, everything we tell ourselves day in, day out, the stuff that works in our favor and that which doesn’t. We have only to listen to our background self-talk to know if we are under a spell we find desirable or not.
Me — I want to be under the spell of surprise and delight. I want to be bowled over by how much is wonderful in this world. I want to be crazy with amazement, giddy with wonder. I want my laughter to fill a universe. And then I want to sleep and create more spells I can be captivated by. I want to use my creative energy to cast spells of goodness that befall me randomly and leave me … weak in the knees, humble, prayerful, thankful.
hmm… i had a sort-of melt down yesterday, actually a blow-out, blow-up and was almost afraid to go to sleep… right b4 i went to bed i went in my bathroom and did my little meditation and asked that i be given SOMETHING in a dream that i could flow positive energy towards as i was not able to find anything in my “what is” that i felt i could sustain a poistive flow towards right now….
i dreampt that i was alone in a house i did not recognize bbut i knew it was my home, my kids were in the yard and so was a very small sign that said 1acre for sale. in the front yard was an old almost comic for sale sign, wooden and tilted sideways and in my drveway was a silver car that i knew belonged to a realator…
i opened the back door to get my kids to come in and i was feeling afraid, there was a man standing RIGHT at the door holding the screendoor open, he looked like my first husband & brad pitt combined (douglas looked alot like brad actually)this guy was taller tho than either of them (nice addition i noted!) and as i looked up to his eyes it was like EVERY cell in my body just totally relaxed and i was enthralled, adored and … at Peace.
i felt a bit wierd when i woke up, but i have been able to conjure this mans eyes all day when tempted to feel afraid again, so i am very grateful for the gift to flow energy towards this feeling of safety and love. xo AM
self hypnosis never looked so good!
I love touchstones, in all the myriad of ways they show up and allow you to “touch” back into that moment, that feeling and gain instant relief. Also love how easily you are answered here, speaks a whole lot to your willingness. xoxoxo Beth
Yeah! Me, too! Me, too!
:) Susan, yes, that’s pretty self-evident in all that you express in your writing!
I know a man with PTSD from the Iraq war. He was taught you can rule your dreams. I think that has helped him at night.
I stopped watching CSI-type shows right before I go to bed. I take time to unwind – read – before turning in for the night. I have the advantage of a C-Pap machine to help me relax and add quiet music to the mix. If I get bad thoughts during the night it is because I have to go to the bathroom. : ) None of this helps during the day, though. I love your writing and I will try using positive hypnosis during the day.
Thank you so much Monica. …You should chat with Lee, you may not know you share something in common besides the obvious. He’s on a bi-pap I think it’s called, since we lived in PA. Thank goodness they have this technology available these days! Hugs, Beth
I love how you express yourself! It IS all hypnosis, isn’t it…? For me, the trick is also in over-coming myself-hypnosis while awake…and eating things I shouldn’t! :-)
Thank you Cathy! Ah yes, the trick! My favorite line in the What the Bleep movie said by Fred Alan Wolfe: the trick to life is not to be in the know, but to be in the mystery. Who knows what, I don’t know, some days I think I know a lot, maybe I know nothing at all, or what I know is bogus. Some times I like to think it’s all a fun game that never gets figured out because it was meant to be *lived* and fully animated with my own special stamp on it. Including the Twix bar, ok two Twix bars, I just devoured and ok, an Almond Joy. And guess what, they were the fun size too! :)