“… flare up like flame and make big shadows I can move in …” ~ Rilke
I was noticing that trust and truth share the first three letters “tru”. I went searching for the origins and etymology of both words, trust and truth, and found that they share in common one word — faithful. I began to explore then how trust and truth might be linked and to what and whom is it that I am faithful.
Recently I’ve written about how I’ve diminished my own authority in the world. This is to not trust in the truth of who I am, it is instead to negate it. And here’s the rub: I have so much authority that I even have the authority to diminish my own authority. I have had all the authority all along. I am the author of my life. I have the power to play it small or play it big. I have the power to make myself weak or strong, meek or bold, broken or whole. I can choose to self censor and diminish myself. I can choose its opposite too.
So I’ve been playing a little game of smoke and mirrors. I’ve been so powerful I could pretend I was weak. It’s a myth I have created that I was ever less than, a myth of my own making. I have both the power to bind myself in chains and the power to relieve myself of them, too.
I had it a bit backwards when I said in my 30 day challenge I would speak my truth, I would honor it, I would not defer it, explain it or stuff it. I put the proverbial cart before the horse. Guess what? I can’t really know my truth until I know myself. And I mean “know” myself in terms of not denying myself. This means trusting in a greater truth, trusting in the fullness, the wholeness of all that I really am and remaining faithful to that truth.
Joseph Campbell has said the privilege of a lifetime is in being who you are. I am feeling that life is too short for me to deny myself that privilege even for one moment longer.
This is wonderful Beth. I am finding similar truth in my life and you have been a huge inspiration and guiding light in that. I love discovering our way on our paths and finding how much they intertwine and move parallel to one another.
Bravo Bethie! You have now peeled back another layer of the onion. Good for you! Live your truth sistah! And shout it from the rooftops everyday.
Love
Z
Hey Beth: I like this. I recently stumbled on this quote that I really like and think fits nicely with your words above:
“Your own Self-realization is the greatest service you can render the world.” – Ramana Maharshi
Have a great Solstice day!
Laurie
Amy I hope you have even an inkling of how blessed I feel to have you as a friend, a soul sister and a fellow traveler on the path of spiritual growth. We are among the 21st century pioneers in consciousness. It’s a wonderful time to be alive and be connected. Love you!
Yes I will live my truth Z! Thanks for being such a wonderful part of cheering me on :) Love, Bethie
Wow, Laurie I love that quote. Often we hear of “service” in different terms. I love that here it’s meaning is to be fully
REAL-ized. Happy Solstice Day to you, too, Laurie! Now if someone could just manage to send that golden orb in my direction. :)