Recently I expressed to my teacher and mentor, Philip Golabuk, that as a facilitator, I could now declare that I was *that* Alice. I was referring to the movie we have both seen and loved, Alice in Wonderland. Alice isn’t sure she is The Alice, until far into the movie. The Mad Hatter knows but she’s got doubts. There’s a pivotal moment when she no longer doubts, she knows, she is *that* Alice.
And so it goes with being a facilitator, you get certified and then you go on into real life and do the practicum and practice what really is art in motion and its a different work of art every time. Basically I was declaring I was a practiced artist by saying I am now *that* Alice. Once I’d declared that, a piece of me felt like high five-ing myself for the courage to be that and to speak it out loud.
A much smaller part of me said: really, we’ll just have to see about that. Doubt. Here I had picked up the thread of doubt and like a loose thread on the hem of my shirt, I kept on pulling and unraveling until I was in a heap of doubt.
But, wait, there’s good news here! If I can grab the thread of doubt, an unwanted feeling, and run with it, then it’s opposite is true! I can finger the thread and unravel the flip side of doubt. Hell, I don’t have to pick up a thread of it’s opposite, I can put the whole damn coat on!
Enter the Coat of Many Feelings. My friend Ahmee inspired me when she spoke of how she puts on the coat of Freedom. What a concept!
So I took *that* Alice’s coat and I slipped my arms into it one at a time, pulling each end up until it sat upon my shoulders. I looked down, I was wearing a tawny colored coat, medium weight, high collar, button down (many buttons), fitted at the waist and then it flared out from there. Finished off at the hem and sleeve ends was fluffy faux fur. No animals sacrificed here! It appeared to be Edwardian style. It was Alice’s coat! Next I caught the wave of the feelings that went with *that* Alice’s coat. The feelings I’d already known and felt. The courage, the complete confidence, the strength, the knowing. I settled into it until I knew I had caught the feeling again. Then I took it off; it’s work was done. And frankly, a girl’s got to move freely when she’s slaying jabberwockies. :)
Then I thought of all that this could be used for. How about the coat of creativity and inspiration? The coat of – I believe in myself. Or my favorite, the coat of — I am in love with life. Oh when I put that coat on the whole world shimmers like every day is a sunny, spring day, the world is alive and vibrating, I am alive. I know the full out joy and the rapture of being alive!
Anytime, anywhere I can put on any coat I want to, so take that doubt sitting over there fingering the loose threads of a hem, I’ve got the whole damn coat! And more than that I know how to catch the wave of what turns me on, what lights me up, what makes my heart sing, what makes me swoon with delight. I’ve got the power and don’t mess with me, because now I’ve got the coat, too!!