Archive for September 20th, 2009


Yes, that was me – aspiring Spiritual Goody Two Shoes.  Just before I was about to receive my certification in Spiritual Goody Two Shoes, I had the sudden realization that I have a dark side.  Well, let’s be clear it wasn’t a sudden realization so much as a willingness to take a look in my own spiritual closets and acknowledge there was in fact a monster in there.  I’d closed that door on my monsters many a time.  I denied it and privately lived in shame.

Perhaps it’s the toughest door to open and yet, ironically requires an innocence of us.  An innocence of mind to open that door and be willing to look at whatever is in there.  Rummaging through my spiritual closets, illuminated a new meaning for the term “mercy and goodness”, taken from the 23rd Psalm.  It required of me a readiness to show myself that mercy and goodness even as I revealed my darker sides.  Now that I’ve opened that door, I’ve discovered I’m not unlike anything or anyone else, this Universe consists of shades of light and dark and I am not exempt from that.

I also learned there is a softness, a leaning into life when I cease to resist this dark side.  My world becomes a more welcoming one.  No more running from what’s behind that closet door.  The monster can come in bed with me now, we’ll read each other bed time stories.  We’ll talk, we’ll have our giggles and tears.  We’ll hug and sleep next to each other and in the morning we’ll step out into the full light of day and walk with an open hearted transparency about us because suddenly our world is a friendlier one and all the demons are no more.

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It amazes me that Jane Roberts was taking dictation on The Way Toward Health even as she lay in a hospital bed with just a few more months to live.  Perhaps her illness served in some way for the greater expansion of all of us, as Seth offered much in response to Jane’s asking.

Below is a quote from The Way Toward Health and following that my comments.

April 19th, 1984 (The Way Toward Health)
4:03 PM Thursday

“There are certain simple steps that can be followed, whenever you
find yourself in a difficult situation, whether the condition is one of
poor health, a stressful personal involvement with another, a financial
dilemma, or whatever.

These steps seem very obvious, and perhaps too easy—but they will bring
an immediate sense of ease and peace of mind while your inner reserves
are being released and activated.

I have mentioned these steps many times, because they are so vital in
clearing the conscious mind, and bringing some sense of relief to the
frightened ego.

1. Immediately begin to live in the present as much as possible. Try to
become as aware as you can of present sense-data—all of it. Often, while
you are in pain for example, you concentrate upon that sensation alone,
ignoring the feelings of ease that may be felt by other portions of the
body and unaware of the conglomeration of sounds, sights and impressions
that are also in the immediate environment. This procedure will
immediately lessen the pressure of the problem itself, whatever it is,
and give you a sense of refreshment.

2. Refuse to worry. This fits automatically with step 1, of course. Tell
yourself you can worry all you want tomorrow, or on some other occasion,
but resolve not to worry in the present moment.

3. When your thoughts do touch upon your particular problem in that
present moment, imagine the best possible solution to the dilemma. Do not
wonder how or why or even when the ideal solution will come, but see it
in your mind’s eye as accomplished. Or if you are not particularly good
at visual imagery, then try to get the feeling of thanksgiving and joy
that you would feel if the problem was solved to your complete

Love that…someone once so eloquently stated: worry does not empty
tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties today of its strength.  And how often
do we find that present moment awareness and worry simply cannot
co-exist.  Worry by its nature is not present moment focused.

Number 3 of the steps reminds me so much of Neville’s teachings which
is to live in your imagination from the desired outcome as having already
manifested.  So that you are not thinking of it, you are living from it as if it
has already happened in your mind’s eye.

And speaking of solutions – that big desire of yours, do you ever get the sense,
just a little nudge or an inkling that you know the end of that story.  You don’t
know how it’s going to happen or when but you just have a sense, an inner
knowing that says it’s all going to work out.  If you do, then go there now,
live from the end, don’t let yourself get caught up in the worry or confusion
or the endless attempts at figuring out what to do.  Just go there to that
fulfilled state now.  And every time you fall back into doubt, remind yourself
of one thing: you already know the end of this story.  All the stuff in between,
is just stuff, you don’t have to give yourself away to it.  If you are going to give
yourself away to anything than give it to living in remembering you already
know it all works out in the end.

It’s not our work to know how or why or when, our only work is to remain
faithful to that fulfilled state.  Feel the body sense that goes along with that
fulfilled state of whatever it is you are desiring.  For me, it is a feeling of deep
contentment, bliss, if you will.  When a moment comes along and everything
feels like it’s not going in that direction, I go back to remembering that fulfilled
state and the corresponding body sense and I rest there.

We are choosing what we give ourselves to all the time with where we put our
focus.  This moment I choose bliss.

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