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This is about distraction or the lack thereof…

It was in the midst of an email conversation with my good friend
Belle that I felt inspired to start a 30 day program.

What it entails is basically every time I have a ‘negative’
thought, I acknowledge it with one word: “distraction” and
then I move on.   This includes all concerns and all judgments
of any kind, towards myself, any condition or anyone else.
All they are, are distractions from whom I choose to be.
It’s amazing how much BS I am refusing to make a dance
partner out of.  Yesterday morning when I first woke up and my
mind was like a searchlight out to lock onto what might be
wrong, I probably said “distraction” a dozen times before I
moved on.

I am very focused on one thing in particular, besides just
general overall peace of mind, I really want to try not making
things mean anything.  I want to suspend drawing conclusions,
making assumptions, building a story.

I had this wonderful opportunity while in conflict with a close
family member to actually practice this, to just state it was a distraction
and not engage in what any of it meant.  As a result, within minutes the
whole situation completely turned around into a really beautiful exchange
with one another.  But if I’d let myself be pulled into what it all could mean,
I would have responded so differently and that heartfelt exchange may
not have taken place.

On Christmas day, I will celebrate my present to myself, a free and
clear Bethie who isn’t lost in a story of her own making and suffering
because of it.  I’m out to end suffering in the place I first experience it.
One person at a time.

Love, Bethie

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