I feel like I’m sensing something new for myself around joy.
That perhaps there is an intrinsic level of joy that exists irregardless of outer circumstances.
That that perhaps is my true nature.
For me it feels as though my recent expansion revealed what I have always had access to.
When I told a friend recently this moment of sheer utter inner happiness I felt,
she asked: did something happen?
No nothing happened at all, except that I had access to something I’ve not felt before.
And that is true inner happiness that is not attached to anything wonderful happening outside of me.
Could I have gotten there without the recent expansion. Me, no I doubt it. someone else, probably….
I was surrounded in a story that fundamentally said
I could not be truly happy without the basic love and nurturing I missed during my upbringing…
‘magic’ happens when my stories outlive their usefulness…
and it wasn’t about writing a new story either – I really don’t have the words to explain it
and my friends ending a blog post with:
I really don’t have the words to explain it
Is blasphemous, ought to be a law against it
or something :)
Love to all, Bethie
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