Joy Harjo’s poem, appended in part below, really speaks to me at this stage of my life.  I love the honesty and the readiness to take herself back in this poem.  At the end of it, she captures the essence of why we hold onto things long after they’ve outlived their usefulness.

Fear is the language of ways in which we learned to cope earlier on, protective shields we developed.  And when we are ready or shall I say, when I am ready to step into the me who is fearless and fully trusts herself what has held me back is that which is afraid of dying.  This dying is abandoning what has contained me inside the illusion of safety.

All versions of ourselves already exist in this vast Universe, this is what Seth wrote of and the new quantum physics seems to support.  So lately, I’m in conversation with the me who is fearful and the version of me who fully trusts herself.  We are negotiating, you could say.  What is there to lose except a life that constricts and confines, I ask the afraid me.  Fearful me answers that it finds refuge in that very constriction.

Every day I continue the conversation, waiting for my willingness to abandon the old order in favor of the new.  As yet, I’m not willing.  Just for now, I’ll honor the one who is not yet willing.  Ironically, I continue to boldly trust that I will be willing one day soon.

There’s a me who leaves no consciousness stone unturned.  I shall not turn this stone over and then set it safely back down in its place and I shall not live with a heart that opens just enough.  One day soon a new conversation will unfold:  remember when you were so afraid?  Yes, I remember when.  It had its time, its reason and its story.  I released her in favor of being the one who is wide open, boundless and free, she trusts herself and herself in the world.  Where I was once so afraid of losing myself instead I found the fullness of who I Am.

* * *

I release you, fear, so you can no longer
keep me naked and frozen in the winter,
or smothered under blankets in the summer.

I release you
I release you
I release you
I release you

I am not afraid to be angry.
I am not afraid to rejoice.
I am not afraid to be black.
I am not afraid to be white.
I am not afraid to be hungry.
I am not afraid to be full.
I am not afraid to be hated.
I am not afraid to be loved.

To be loved, to be loved, fear.

Oh, you have choked me, but I gave you the leash.
You have gutted me but I gave you the knife.
You have devoured me, but I laid myself across the fire.

I take myself back, fear.
You are not my shadow any longer.
I won’t hold you in my hands.
You can’t live in my eyes, my ears, my voice
my belly, or in my heart my heart
my heart    my heart

But come here, fear
I am alive and you are so afraid

of dying.

~Joy Harjo~
what have you lost?
Poems Selected by Naomi Shihab Nye

Fans of QM/QP, Seth, What the Bleep, Field Center and more will like this video clip which contains several of the WTB scientisits, a few that were only seen in the extended version.  Do you all remember the bumper sticker that read: Question Authority?  If I could summarize this video in two words it would be: Question Reality.  The moment you question it, you cease to be captivated and fascinated by it.  It loses its spell over you.  Now from this questioning, uncertain stance suddenly what seemed so real is now fluid and malleable.  This is the place where anything can change in an instant.  That’s my new t-shirt: Question Reality.

Yet you may open the door on any given day to a probable world from your
immediate standpoint, and never know the difference.

This happens all the time, and I mean all the time.

Seth -The Nature of the Psyche
Session 797, Page 203

This follows along nicely with my new mantra that anything can change
in an instant.  And I think I’ve actually stumbled upon a practice that has
led me to experience other probable realities immediately, just as Seth says:
it happens all the time.

I first wrote about it in The Art of Revision and then a follow up post on
Playing It Forward.  This is where I am utilizing Neville’s technique of
revising my day just before I go to sleep and then pre-paving it just before
I get out of bed.  My emphasis has not been on the events of the day them-
selves but on how I want to feel.

Now I’ve added a new practice and that is to stop in the instant that I feel
I’m in a ‘this sucks’ moment.  Stop, withdraw my attention from it and go
within.  I go within to my imagination and find the feeling place of how I
would prefer to feel.  I wait till I feel as if I have embodied that feeling.  At the
moment of embodiment a deep breath of satisfaction just seems to naturally
well up from donning the feeling.  A shift has occurred, another probable
world has been entered, where everything has changed in my inner world
in an instant.   And the truth that remains is I can no longer be held captive
by the events of the outer world.  The outer world can do what it does, I am
independent of any facts.  I do not face any reality unless it’s a reality I wish
to reproduce in my experience.

Well, not only have I stumbled upon a beautiful practice with the help of
Neville’s teachings – I’ve found true personal freedom and I’ve developed
a process that is so self-friendly, so loving, so true to one’s self.   I have
always loved Louise Hay’s mantra: only good lies before me.  However,
there were times I didn’t believe it.  I believe it now.

I wake up in the morning and I consciously create my day the way I want it to happen. Now sometimes, because my mind is examining all the things that I need to get done, it takes me a little bit to settle down and get to the point of where I’m actually intentionally creating my day. But here’s the thing: When I create my day and out of nowhere little things happen that are so unexplainable, I know that they are the process or the result of my creation. And the more I do that, the more I build a neural net in my brain that I accept that that’s possible. (This) gives me the power and the incentive to do it the next day.

So if we’re consciously designing our destiny, and if we’re consciously from a spiritual standpoint throwing in with the idea that our thoughts can affect our reality or affect our life — because reality equals life — then I have this little pact that I have when I create my day. I say, I’m taking this time to create my day and I’m infecting the quantum field. Now if (it) is in fact the observer’s watching me the whole time that I’m doing this and there is a spiritual aspect to myself, then show me a sign today that you paid attention to any one of these things that I created, and bring them in a way that I won’t expect, so I’m as surprised at my ability to be able to experience these things. And make it so that I have no doubt that it’s come from you, and so I live my life, in a sense, all day long thinking about being a genius or thinking about being the glory and the power of God or thinking about being unconditional love.

I’ll use living as a genius, for example. And as I do that during parts of the day, I’ll have thoughts that are so amazing, that cause a chill in my physical body, that have come from nowhere. But then I remember that that thought has an associated energy that’s produced an effect in my physical body. Now that’s a subjective experience, but the truth is is that I don’t think that unless I was creating my day to have unlimited thought, that that thought would come.

Dr. Joe Dispenza in What the BLEEP Do We Know!?

This is a paraphrase of the interaction with the hotseater:

Abe is telling this dude about Jane Roberts/Seth saying ‘you create
your own reality’. But Abe says really it is you *rendezvous with your
reality*. So then they say at any time there are 20, 40, 100,000 ready
to pop right now synchronistic signs. And the one that does pop is a
sign of where you are now in relationship to who you really are and
who you have become.

I love that: rendezvous with your reality and it does seem a lot more
accurate. An infinite variety of realities already exist, as I understand it.
So I’m not inventing the wheel, I’m not creating it, I’m rendezvousing
with an aspect of what already exists.

This is by the way, the hotseat interaction where the guy asks one more
question at the end:

group hug?

:)

Love, Bethie

Seth on “The Ancient Dreamers (The Sleepwalkers)” (pt.1)

Dreams, “Evolution,” and Value Fulfillment, Vol. 1, Session 893,
January 07, 1980.
For what would seem to you to be eons, according to your time
scale, men were in the dreaming state far more than they were in the
waking one. They slept long hours, as did the animals awakening,
so to speak, to exercise their bodies, obtain sustenance, and,
later, to mate. It was indeed a dreamlike world, but a highly
charming and vital one, in which dreaming imaginations played
rambunctiously with all the probabilities entailed in this new
venture: imaging the various forms of language and communication
possible, spinning great dream tales of future civilizations replete
with their own built-in histories building, because they were now
allied with time, mental edifices that automatically created pasts
as well as futures.

These ancient dreams were shared to some extent by each
consciousness that was embarked upon the earthly venture, so that
creatures and environment together formed great environmental
realities. Valleys and mountains, and their inhabitants, together
dreamed themselves into being and coexistence.

The species from your viewpoint lived at a much slower pace in
those terms. The blood, for example, did not need to course so
quickly through the veins [and arteries], the heart did not need to
beat as fast. And in an important fashion the coordination of the
creature in its environment did not need to be as precise, since
there was an elastic give-and-take of consciousness between the two.

In ways almost impossible to describe, the ground rules were not as
yet firmly established. Gravity itself did not carry its all-
pervasive sway, so that the air was more buoyant. Man was aware of
its support in a luxurious, intimate fashion. He was aware of
himself in a different way, so that, for example, his identification
with the self did not stop where his skin stopped: He could follow
it outward into the space about his form, and feel it merge with the
atmosphere with a primal sense-experience that you have forgotten.

During this period, incidentally, mental activity of the highest,
most original variety was the strongest dream characteristic, and
the knowledge [man] gained was imprinted upon the physical brain:
what is now completely unconscious activity involving the functions
of the body, its relationship with the environment, its balance and
temperature, its constant, inner alterations. All of these highly
intricate activities were learned and practiced in the dream state
as the CUs [consciousness units] translated their inner knowledge
through the state of dreaming into physical form.

Then in your terms man began, with the other species, to waken more
fully into the physical world, to develop the exterior senses, to
intersect delicately and precisely with space and time. Yet man
still sleeps and dreams, and that state is still a firm connective
with his own origins, and with the origins of the universe as he
knows it as well.

… In a fashion those ancient dreamers, through their immense
creativity, dreamed all of life’s creatures in all of their pasts,
presents, and futures that is, their dreams opened up the doors of
space and time to entities that otherwise would not have been
released into actualization, even as, for example, the units of
consciousness were once released from the mind of All-That-Is.

All possible entities that can ever be actualized always exist.
They [have] always existed and they always will exist. All-That-Is
must, by its characteristics, be all that it can ever be, and so
there can be no end to existence and, in those terms, no
beginning. But in terms of your world the units of consciousness,
acting both as forces [waves] and as psychological entities
[particles] of massive power, planted the seeds of your world in a
dimension of imaginative power that gave birth to physical form. In
your terms those entities [particles] are your ancestors and yet
[they are] not yours alone, but the ancestors of all the
consciousnesses that make up your world.

Session 894, January 09, 1980.

Basically, there are no real divisions to the self, but for the
sake of explanation we must speak of them in those terms. First of
all you had the inner self, the creative dreaming self composed,
again, of units of consciousness, awareized energy that forms your
identity, and that formed the identities of the earliest earth
inhabitants. These inner selves formed their own dream bodies about
them, as previously explained, but the dream bodies did not have to
have physical reactions. They were free of gravity and space, and of
time.

As the body became physical, however, the inner self formed the
body consciousness so that the physical body became more aware of
itself, of the environment, and of its relationship within the
environment. Before this could happen, though, the body
consciousness was taught to become aware of its own inner
environment. The body was lovingly formed from EE [electromagnetic
energy] units through all the stages to atoms, cells, organs, and so
forth. The body’s pattern came from the inner self, as all of the
units of consciousness involved in this venture together formed this
fabric of environment and creatures, each suited to the other.

So far in our discussion, then, we have an inner self, dwelling
primarily in a mental or psychic dimension, dreaming itself into
physical form, and finally forming a body consciousness. To that
body consciousness the inner self gives its own body of physical
knowledge, the vast reservoir of physical achievement that it has
triumphantly produced. The body consciousness is not `unconscious,’
but for working purposes in your terms, [the body] possesses its own
system of consciousness that to some extent, now, is separated from
what you think of as your own normal consciousness. The body’s
consciousness is hardly to be considered less than your own, or as
inferior to that of your inner self, since it represents knowledge
from the inner self, and is a part of the inner self’s own
consciousness the part delegated to the body.

[Each] cell, then, as I have often said, operates so well in time
because it is, in those terms, precognitive. It is aware of the
position, health, vitality, of all other cells on the face of the
planet. It is aware of the position of each grain of sand on the
shores of each ocean, and in those terms it forms a portion of the
earth’s consciousness.

… Thus far in our discussion, we still have only an inner self
and a body consciousness. As the body consciousness developed
itself, perfected its organization, the inner self and the body
consciousness together performed a kind of psychological double-
entendre.

… The best analogy I can think of is that up to that time the
self was like a psychological rubber band, snapping inward and
outward with great force and vitality, but without any kind of rigid-
enough psychological framework to maintain a physical stance. The
inner self still related to dream reality, while the body’s
orientation and the body consciousness attained, as was intended, a
great sense of physical adventure, curiosity, speculation, wonder
and so once again the inner self put a portion of its consciousness
in a different parcel, so to speak. As once it had formed the body
consciousness, now it formed a physically attuned consciousness, a
self whose desires and intents would be oriented in a way that,
alone, the inner self could not be.

… [The outer ego] is the self that looks outward. It is the self
that you call egotistically aware. The inner self became what I
refer to as the inner ego. It looks into that inner reality, that
psychic dimension of awareness from which both your own [outer ego]
consciousness and your body consciousness emerged.

You are one self, then, but for operating purposes we will say that
you have three parts: the inner self or ego, the body [sub]
consciousness, and the [outer ego] consciousness that you know.

These portions, however, are intimately connected. They are like
three different systems of consciousness operating together to form
the whole. The divisions, the seeming divisions are not
stationary, but change constantly.

… To one extent or another, these three systems of consciousness
operate in one way or another in all of the species, and in all
particles, in the physical universe. In your terms, this means that
the proportions of the three systems might vary, but they are always
in operation, whether we are speaking of a man or a woman, a rock or
a fly, a star or an atom. The inner self represents your prime
identity, the self you really are.

… The body [sub]consciousness is therefore given a superb sense
of its own reality, a sureness of identity, a sense of innate safety
and security, that allows it to not only function but to grow in the
physical world. It is endowed with a sense of boldness, daring, a
sense of natural power. It is perfectly formed to fit into its
environment and the environment is perfectly formed to have such
creatures.

The entities, or units of consciousness those ancient fragments
[particles] that burst into objectivity from the vast and infinite
psychological realms of All-That-Is dared all, for they joyfully
abandoned themselves in space and time. They created new
psychological entities, opened up an area of divine creativity
that `until then’ had been closed, and therefore to that [degree]
extended the experience and immense existence of All-That-Is. For in
so abandoning themselves they were not of course abandoned, since
they contained within themselves their inherent relationship with
All-That-Is. In those terms All-That-Is became physical also,
aroused at its divine depth by the thrusting of each grass blade
through the soil into the air, aroused by each birth and by each
moment of each creature’s existence.

All-That-Is, therefore, is immersed within your world, present in
each hypothetical point, and forms the very fabric from which each
portion of matter is created.

© Robert F. Butts, All Rights Reserved.

Summary of Concepts:

In the beginning, the world and everything in its valleys,
mountains, oceans, the sky, and every species of organic life was
guided by the cooperative group dreams of every type of
consciousness involved. Endless probabilities were explored and a
mental framework created that began to include probable pasts,
presents, and futures. This stage of development lasted for “eons.”

Causal Aspects of All-That-Is that Seth calls consciousness units
(causal field) translated their inner knowledge via the dream state
(subtle field) to create all physical forms (physical field). “…
these highly intricate activities were learned and practiced in the
dream state.” Thus, the subtle field was a hotbed of creativity that
paved the way for the emergence of the physical field.

Every inner self (including sleepwalkers) has and will always
exist in some latent form within All-That-Is. Only a small
percentage of this latency can be physically manifest in any given
time. All-That-Is strives “to be all that it can ever be, and so
there can be no end to existence and … no beginning.” Thus, Seth
describes the causal (wave) and subtle (wave) fields in terms of
eternal qualities (no beginning or end) in relation to the physical
(particle) field, which by design has beginnings and endings.

CUs, acting both as forces (waves) and as individualized
consciousness (particles), are the ancestors of every type of
consciousness that make up our world. Thus, the sleepwalkers are the
ancient dreamers working in the subtle field who created our
universe and human beings.

As the ancient dreamers experimented with various species and the
ecosystem, they began to develop human body consciousness. There was
a period lasting for eons in which the subtle and physical fields
were not yet stable enough for physical reproduction and mating to
be required. (In other words, the dreamtime “preceded” sexual
reproduction in the physical field, and didn’t require sex as we
know it. Once the first cellular life physically manifest, however,
physical sex was required for reproduction.)

The inner self is that subtle field aspect of the sleepwalkers that
dreamed, “translated,” and consciously created physicality. We did
such a great job in this process that, as we came to rely more and
more on our physical senses, all of the amazing calculations and
manipulations of energy needed to maintain a physical body began to
recede into the background of the subconscious. In this sense, the
subconscious had to stabilize before the outer ego could emerge.

Eventually we no longer needed to be consciously aware of growing
our hair, digesting our food, or healing a cut. All of these issues
had to be figured out in the Overall design before they could
became “automatic.” Our body consciousness, which became part of the
subconscious, then, represents the knowledge of the inner
self “translated” into physical form.

There is no aspect of All-That-Is causal, subtle, or physical
that is unconscious. All aspects exist in simultaneously nested
fields created by the wave/particle nature of CUs. And that is a
loaded statement!

There were three additional functions designed by the sleepwalkers
so that humans could emerge. However, the apparent divisions between
them are seamless.

1. inner self (inner ego, “wave focus”)

2. body consciousness (subconscious mediating layer, “wave and
particle focus”)

3. outer ego (pre-egoic, “particle focus”)

These functions broadly occur in every thing and process in the
physical field. Though the relationships may vary, they always
operate in any quantum field, galaxy, planet, rock, plant, animal,
or person. (This is another very important deep structure at play in
all energy-matter. More on this later.)

Seth closes with a reminder that All-That-Is worked together in a
massive, simultaneous, cooperative venture of the highest creative
expression possible. We simultaneously, as Causal Consciousness
(CUs), as sleepwalkers (EEs), and finally as physical creatures
(quantum fields) saw through wave and particle “eyes” that it was
good! (or should I say God? :-)

Comments:

In this segment, Seth focused on the emerging physical field. He
outlined the basic “order of play” or stages of development in
sequential, physical terms. For example, “The body was lovingly
formed from EE [electromagnetic energy] units through all the stages
to atoms, cells, organs, and so forth.” So there were atoms first
that evolved into cells, which in turn evolved into organs, bodies,
and nascent outer egos. And yet, Seth continues to explore our
origins from the paradoxically simultaneous Causal (CUs) and subtle
(EEs) fields. And this is exactly what makes this a postmodern
creation myth.

Finally, a note on semantics up to this point: EEs,
electromagnetic energy units, inner selves, sleepwalkers, ancient
dreamers, source selves, and energy personality essences are
ontologically equivalent. So these terms describe related aspects of
the subtle field and may be used interchangeably.
__._,_.___

Impartial, calm and free!   I never thought I could or would find value in lack of passion.
Passion in the sense of being caught up and swirling in emotion.  Never really realizing
that every emotion I choose and every circumstance that elicits and supports that emotion
is also my choosing.

I am a big fan of What the Bleep and really took a closer look at it this past winter in the Rabbit
Hole version which is many more hours of scientist interviews and different cuts of the movie.
Remember how the character that Marlee Maitlin played would go into the theater of her life and
watch different versions of who she was in her life and how her life played out.  Remember that
she was a largely dispassionate witness in the theater as she chose a version of being one who
marries an unfaithful man, one who believes that all men are cheaters and marriage is bad.
Remember how much she didn’t want to photograph that wedding and how she chose to overlay
her experience that the groom cheated on his new wife.  How everything she chose in her experience
reflected and supported her beliefs.  Then later we see Marlee’s character watch another version
of herself one who is content and happily married, after she’s had that pivotal bathroom scene where
she returns to what is beautiful, loveable and worthy about herself.

So the knowledge that we are choosing it all has not been quite enough for me.  But here’s what is
helping me to take it to another level, seeing the circumstances in my life that I’ve chosen and all the
players in it and putting them up there, in my mind’s eye, on the screen in the theater of my life.
And then stepping back, dispassionately with a simple question: what do I gain by playing this movie?
What role do the players take to support this gain?  And I’m not talking about gain in the usual sense
but more in the sense of what is the payoff here for me to continue choosing this?  And then from that
honest inquiry of myself, deciding what it is I consciously want to put up there in my movie.  What role
do I play – who am I?  And then stepping into that movie.  It’s a very conscious, deliberate practice and
one I’m only just embarking on.  The material that I’ve been working with over at The Field Center has
been helping me to take this to another level.  My appreciation and gratitude goes out to Holly S. for
introducing me to it and to myself for being such a big Asker and being eternally committed and willing
to step into the Answers.

Love, Bethie

Just taking that first step –
and once they have that
moment of insight –
that moment of insight carries
a frequency, carries a message
{and} the cells of the body are
enlivened by possibility.

They’re enlivened by unknown potentials.
They’re enlivened by a future history or a
future opportunity that may be down the
rabbit hole a little further.

And, if they allow themselves to experience
the quandry and the mysticism and the possibility
that when they emerge from the rabbit hole,
they are a different person.

And, now they go back into the world and because
they processed that information and left footprints
in the mind and in the brain their perception of the
world will never be the same.
~Dr. Joseph Dispenza
quotation from: What the Bleep!? Down the Rabbit
Hole/Quantum Edition

The point is that we are not passive reactors/responders to life, we actually are active creators of our lives.  It’s even above and beyond the
Law of Attraction ala The Secret. 

When the main character in What the Bleep…, played by Marlee Maitlin, enters the basketball court, otherwise known as the ‘court of endless possibilities’ — the basketball is shown bouncing in an infinite array of places until Marlee turns around to face it and has the expectation of where it will bounce.  The choice has been made and it no longer bounces in infinite places, now it’s one place, the place she chose.  It is said in that scene:
when you are not looking it’s a wave and when you are looking, it’s a particle.   He’s explaining why a basketball could actually be bouncing in an infinite variety of places until you turn around, until you are ‘looking’ and have the expectation for it to be in a singular place. 

Now let’s say that in another way: when you are not looking the possibilities are endless and when you are looking, you’ve honed in on your selection.  Getting a sense of how you might apply that consciously to your own world?

Ponder that for awhile!  And meanwhile I leave you with some more quotes from the movie, these are from the 3-CD Quantam Edition which has about 6 more hours of interviews with scientists than the actual final cut movie does.

“Quantum mechanics is really the play and display of potentiality.  Waves of information.  Waves of potential electron.  And it’s important, the word ‘potential’.  This isn’t the world of electrons.  It’s the world of potential electrons. You have to ask the question: waves of what, really?  What is the field that is waving?  Is it the ocean?  No.  It’s a Universal Ocean.  An ocean of pure potentiality.  An ocean of abstract potential existence.  We call it the unified field or super string field.  And that’s what we are made of.”
~John Hagelin, Ph.D.

“We have to go beyond our senses to create a new paradigm.”
~Dr. Joseph Dispenza

It’s a question asked in What the Bleep Do We Know?! Before The Secret, there was What the Bleep Do We Know?!
If you haven’t seen it, run don’t walk to your nearest Blockbuster or Hollywood video and rent it. It’s groundbreaking and
what it says is truly more revolutionary than what The Secret says. And if you are ready to open your mind to new possibilities,
you will be awe struck with this movie.

So…how far down the rabbit hole are you willing to go? I’m willing to go down pretty far myself. I have no theoretical knowledge
of quantam physics or quantam mechanics that I’m aware of. But you won’t need it down the rabbit hole – just keep an open mind
and a willingness to play with some new ideas.

“We all have a habit of thinking that everything around us is already a
thing, existing without my input, without my choice. You have to banish
that kind of thinking…Instead you really have to recognize that even the material world around us,
the chairs, the tables, the room, the carpet, the camera included, all
of these
are nothing but possible movements of consciousness. And I’m choosing
moment to moment out of those movements to bring my actual experience
into manifestation. This is the only radical thinking that you need to
do, but
it is so radical. It’s so difficult because our tendency is that the
world is already
out there, independent of my experience.

It is not. Quantum Physics has been so clear about it. Heisenberg
himself,
codiscoverer of Quantum Physics, said atoms are not things. They’re only
tendencies. So, instead of thinking of things, you have to think of
possibilities.
There are possibilities of consciousness.”
~Amit Goswami, Ph.D.~excerpted from the Little Book of Bleeps

Possibilities of consciousness equals choice equals freedom. How might you play with those concepts today?
I’ll be back with more consciousness expanding and maybe we’ll explore the rabbit hole together.
Love, Bethie